"Quit!" or "Not to Quit!"

That decision of whether to quit the job and be a stay at home mother has started to oscillate in my mind. If I quit my job now, it would be the 3rd time I'm doing this. Once this decision is taken, I really do not want to enter this world of IT again. 

I ask myself, "Why should I quit?".  Right brain of mine answers these...

• Bothering my parents too much at the age of 58 and 64. From birth, until now, only they have been of great help and are still helping. I have never had the opportunity nor taken any responsibility in helping them. To the least, if not helping them, should stop getting their help
• If not my mom, there is no else who can give equivalent care when I'm at office. The other option would be sending my kids to day care. I did this when Akil was 2 year old and from then on, his health went for a toss. Arnav's would get much worsen. Sending kids to day care is not an offense according to me. It just didn't suit my kids.
• I have been sending Akil to various classes but none of them have been very interesting for him. He is now going to dance class but that is not of great interest to him. I don't want him to drop out of it now as if not dance class, he would spend that time in front of "the idiot box". At least he sweats out there. His interest is in drawing and keyboard classes but I don't have the flexibility to drop him in good classes of those because of my job. What when Arnav also grows up?
• Luckily, their studies have not got impacted as I moved from my data warehousing career to software quality. I'm able to be in sync. with what the school expects and kids have also been performing reasonably well. Late night's or working in extra hours is not needed here. But is this what I'm passionate about? Not really! 
• Other thing that bothers me is their discipline. Grandma's are always kind and very patient with kids. Both my kids take ride on her and it's been difficult to keep this up. Maybe if they were girls, this wouldn't have been too concerning. With 2 complete months of summer holidays coming up, engaging them is going to be very challenging.
• Hubby is also not able to take time out as he is also into IT and career cannot be optional for him.

But there are also answers for why I shouldn't quit.

• With two kids and home loan in place, managing the expense would become very difficult with single earning. Unexpected & unavoidable expense creeps up for them. Planning and saving is always there but is that enough in this changing and challenging world. Educate the kids of what is not possible is the only best available solution.
• The dignity that I get as a working women will not be there when I'm not working, though this is not actually bothering me much.
• How am I going to engage myself when kids are not around? I should get an answer before I get that big decision for the 3rd time.

Kudos to all the wonderful mom's in IT who have reached the peak in their career, and specially for those with boy kids as managing and making this gender understand a situation is so difficult.